Because of this narrator, I've tossed myself into several books about the war...The Forgotten 500 (buy it here The Forgotten 500 ), and The Monuments Men being two of my favorites thus far, as well as jumping into Part 2 of my own book...so the death toll of WWII has been fresh for me these past few months. I've been in it, because that's where my Narrator is, still coping.
|Circe Taurus Izaboo.|
In remembering only Circe's birthday, I forgot something that was once fucking huge...my Unwedding Day.
Two things: First, Circe was my hero and best friend, the Rottweiler that taught me everything I needed to know about life, love, dogs, myself, dignity and humor, forever and ever amen. She was born on May 12th 1997 and died on January 14th, 2009, and those two days are hung on my heart.
The year of my Unwedding, after the cancellation and the lost deposits, I put on my wedding dress (a cute little casual vintage lace mini dress) and went to see a movie in the graveyard at Cinespia, Hollywood Forever Cemetery, Hollywood, with my friends and family. It was a way to "put it to rest" and move on, but it has been clearly on my mind each year until 2014, when I forgot completely that this was the day I dodged the biggest bullet in existence.
I believe very much that if I would have gotten married on May 12th, 2012, I would be a statistic of divorce by now. As hard as it's been to separate myself from that life, it would have been harder to negotiate a divorce. Cancelling a wedding and breaking off an 8 year relationship was devastating, and the ensuing questions about my marriage status weren't fun and never will be, but I am thankful for the opportunity that changed my trajectory, thankful for the inspiration that I have right now to write, and thankful for a spirit that can choose to let go, and simply...forget...because it was a small moment in time that doesn't matter in the long run.
|Remembering all souls that have been lost, those with 2 legs and 4.|
Here's to forgetting the things that hurt you and remembering the people that free you.